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pete died last night. i thought he was looking better this past week after getting a refill on his meds but the day before yesterday he stopped eating and started looking pretty bad. gareth and i arrived home from work at the same time in the pouring rain. i was glad i wasn't alone when i discovered him. at least he had a very peaceful look on his face. lying on the floor of his tank with his hands almost in prayer position on the side of his face. at least he's not suffering anymore. i thought that was the hardest part watching him in pain. but i was pretty torn up last night. i'm bringing his body back home today to bury in the yard with all my past pets. that was a lousy way to end thanksgiving day. dinner at my sister's house was pretty great though. i brought a non-tofu tofurkey (no meat or soy... not entirely sure what it was made of) and made vegetarian stuffing for the first time. it had been years since i'd had stuffing and it was awesome. my mom's cousin made lots of veggie dishes too and they were wonderful (sweet potatoes with cranberries... green beans with pine nuts...mmm). i brought home lots of leftovers. including half a pecan pie from my parents. my favorite. i saw the most ironic site on the driveway to their house. a flock of turkeys. put a pretty big smile on my face. so it turns out that sore wrist i've had might be carpal tunnel. my mom had it and ended up needing surgery a few years back. it's gotten worse over the past week. working definitly makes it worse. it might even be the cause of it. i'd been wrapping up my wrist all week but on wednesday i was there by myself all morning with a non-stop line of customers and i couldn't work fast enough with a wrap on. so by today it's hurting pretty bad. i got a wrist guard last night like mom suggested but it really seemed to make things worse. i guess a doctor is my next step here. so many ups and downs in life. it's hard to hang on on this roller coaster.