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it's weird writing things in facebook. just sending out random thoughts for all to see. i'm enjoying sharing my pics with an audience and seeing their comments. but there's some things that just can't be said with pics and i don't know how to write them. i guess i'm better in blog mostly because i don't think many will read. but i like looking back on what was going on in my life and my thoughts on it. right now there's a lot going on and my thoughts aren't the best. my car failed inspection for (with correct math) what would be over $1,800 to fix. but i talked to my sister and brother in law in louisa and they think i'm being ripped off and have offered to help. thank god for family. i have no idea when i'll have the time to get it out there but it'll be worth it. i had a few days off and got caught up with everything that's been piling up. gareth's been working 60-70 hours every week since he started (almost a month now). so that's been hard on us. especially him. especially after learning his mom has cancer. she just had surgery for the tumor in her colon. but it's in her lungs too. so that's pretty devastating. he's barely been able to see her either. don't know what else to say about that. i sent in my application for the vet tech program again. it was a lot easier this time with them already having my transcripts and no observation hours needed. hopefully i'll get in now with chemistry completed. i've been taking a math course online. it's pretty easy and so far i've been getting good grades. kitt and colby both had a bout of diarrhea the beginning of the month. kitt's cleared up quickly without treatment but colby's was pretty bad until he got some antibiotics in his system. he couldn't hold it overnight or while i was at work so i had multiple messes and started bringing him to work with me. he's all better now. after all that i decided to get kitt checked out more thoroughly and had bloodwork and a urinalysis done. it indicates she has the beginning of kidney disease. which is understandable at her age. i'm debating taking the doctor's advice and having a dental done or not. there's downsides to either choice and i'm just trying to make the best one. the horse i was riding with the girl from work has a tumor in her leg. they just found it and she asked me to come see them aspirate it the other day. it was interesting and i even got to give the horse two shots. hopefully it's benign and they won't have to remove it. that's what happened to my horse. she had a tumor in her chest that just started growing one day. they said she'd have to be put down so i stopped going out. i couldn't be there for that. still makes me sad. i found some old pics and scanned them in to share. still makes me happy. my back started hurting really bad last week and i had some sort of back spasam at work. this was right after i was tattled on for talking to the girl with the horse about all our medical issues going on with our people and pets. it was all too much and i had a minor breakdown. not everyone at work is terrible but the ones that are really make it suck sometimes. i just realized how nice it it outside and decided colby and i need some sunshine before i'm stuck at work the rest of the day. i finally planted the bulbs mom gave me last fall. they're only under about an inch of mulch and dirt but maybe i'll have some flowers come spring. i think this is everything that's been going on lately. it's not all bad but it's a lot to deal with. especially with gareth not being around. hopefully everything will work out. i'm looking forward to the spring here. i don't know if gareth realizes how much i enjoy our home and especially our yard here. i hope he does before absolutely insisting we move into the city where we'll have a lot less for a lot more. but that's a thought for another day...